Jeremiah 1: 4-10
Here it is!! I guess its in His plan for me to start sharing my journey tonight! Lately things have shifted in my life. All my life I would hear people in my family and in my church family talk about how God had spoken to them at one point in their life. I always craved that. I wanted to hear what God wanted from me. What he had planned for me to do and how he was going to guide me in the right path and allow that plan to unfold for me. In the past few months I spent a lot of time in prayer. I needed to hear God and I needed to know that it was really him I was hearing. I dove into the word reading whenever I had free time and let me tell you, God answers a lot of things just through reading the Bible. I knew that in order for me to hear his specific plan for me, I needed to grow a better relationship with him.
Flash back to a few months ago on a Monday night. I was laying in bed ready to go to sleep but I could not, no matter how hard I tried, fall asleep. I was exhausted and could not fall asleep to save my life. You know when you are sooo tired you just wanna cry? Yeah, that tired. I kept hearing something tell me to get up and open my bible. I ignored it and tried to focus on my breathing to help me fall asleep and I heard it again. “Is that you, God?”, and he answered. He wanted me to open my bible. So I did. I got up and literally did just that. I opened it to a random page in the Bible and it was the exact page I needed to read that night. I had been discouraged in the weeks before that, didn’t know what I was supposed to be doing, I had been sick, I didn’t know what professional route I should be taking and I had other decisions that had to be made sooner than later as well. What I read that night made things so much clearer for me. God has a set plan for me. He has a destination for me and he has the whole journey, every step of the way, already planned out for me. He knows the battles I am going to face, and also knows how I will overcome those battles. Its such a crazy, wonderful thing!
I know for a fact that God wants me to be more transparent with my faith. And through being in the word and surrounding my day in constant prayer, I know that He wants me to share my journey here, on my Blog. Ive known this for a few months now and it has been on my heart. Im honestly not the best writer. I spell everything wrong and I know that a lot of times, I don’t even make sense. I didn’t know how to start this but I knew that this was in my plan. I didn’t know when I was going to publish my first “Faith Blog” and I didn’t know what it was going to be about. How would I transition? Could I still blog about fashion? How do I just start talking about my beliefs on my blog? I had so many question but tonight, God told me to type.
I wasn’t going to do my devotions tonight to be totally honest. I was going to skip it and go to sleep because I am exhausted. I had a long day and my eyes are super scratchy and dry form allergies. I just wanted to go to bed but God clearly had another route for my night. I was in bed, and heard him tell me again, Open your Bible. I don’t ignore him anymore lol. I did what he said and I was blown away. I opened right up to Jeremiah 1 and read from verses 4-10 and got all the answers I needed. I knew that God wanted me to wait for his green light on when to start. I knew this blog would happen in his time and that he would guide me in how, and when I would start posting and I had no idea it was going to be tonight.
“But I protested, ‘oh no, Lord God! Look, I don’t know how to speak since I am only a youth.’ Then the Lord said to me: Do not say “I am only a youth”, for you will go to everyone I sent you to and speak whatever I tell you. Do not be afraid of anyone, for I will be with you to rescue you. This is the Lords declaration” (Jeremiah 1:6-8)
This was my sign and I knew that tonight was the night that I would start my journey blogging about my faith and my growing relationship with Jesus. This was God telling me to go forward and that He has my back and will not let me fail he will give me the words to speak so that it will glorify HIS name! I am new to this though. I know you will probably find spelling errors and grammar mistakes, but hopefully you can look past that all.
Ive learned that following Gods orders isn’t easy. Being obedient is tough, but it’s rewarding and life changing. I hope you are all willing to stick it out and follow me along this journey. God has an awesome plan for each individual person, its up to us to ask, hear and listen to him when he presents it to us!
Where He leads, I will follow!