All this doing nothing, laying low and staying away from people really has me going a little crazy. Quarantine really gives you a bunch of time to think about all the unnecessary things you shouldn’t have to be thinking about and to be honest with you guys, I thought this was going to be a lot easier on me. Maybe even a little easier on me than it would be on others, but this is getting to be a little bit too much.
With my instagram, this blog and now Tayla’s Closet the Label, my thought was that I would have plenty to keep me busy! I thought the extra time would really motivate me and get me creating and pushing out tons of content. Some days are like that, don’t get me wrong! Some days I get this huge boost of creativity and I’m in my room/ office werkin (lol) all day long! I also have the bad days though that are not so pretty. I get down and feel like there’s no point in doing everything that i’m doing. Here I am… waking up, getting dressed, doing my makeup and taking pictures in my bedroom; all for what?? Just feels silly sometimes if I think about it too much. And “thinking too much” is my forte right now *eye roll*.
I do thank God that I was given siblings though because being locked in the house with those two really isn’t all that bad. We come through for each other when we know we’re all we got. The other night I sat in Bryannas room curling her hair (and her hair is LONGGG), and Zac even made a little at home movie for us to watch together last week which was nice. Mom and I enjoyed taking our dog out for a walk and we’ve been really trying to make the most out of it.
I was able to enjoy an awesome day outside at the park with my family the other day though. That really lifted my spirts! Being outside can really be taken for granted. I cant even remember the last time I went to a park before this all went down.
There are so many other things on my mind right now and I’m not too sure I’m ready to share them all right now. Maybe once this is all over? Who knows! I thought there would be more to this blog post, I really did. I guess my main point in typing this up is that this is not easy. I’m not loving it. There are good times, and there are bad times. Money is tough. I miss my family and I want to enjoy my simple freedoms again. However, we are all in this together and I know there’s always a rainbow after every storm. Telling myself to keep my head up and thank God for the good things!
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